My summer was awesome, I worked at a 24 hour camp, I had 9 boys aged 7-9. It was pretty much the greatest summer I've ever had, I had so much fun and learned so much. My boys were aspirers, ADHD, and ODD, I think about them everyday, I got offered a job for next summer, which is cool because it said that I did a good job this summer. Most nights I wouldn't get to bed until 2 or 3 in the morning and be back up at 630 for meds, again a great learning experience. Other than that, I didn't do a whole lot this summer, I mean it was 24 hour days, it was long and hard but I loved every second of it.
I got home and did absolutely nothing for 13 days, after sleeping about 14 hours over the whole summer, I felt that I deserved some "me time". I was so happy to get back to school having 13 days was nice, but did it ever get boring fast, I mean there's only so much MLB the show 11 you can play.
Culture and Diversity class was interesting, I remember hearing get out of my comfort zone, and I thought that I'm comfortable with everything, that was short lived when Chris said go to church, and I was like "oh man I would not fit in there" I learned something new, after class was over and I had a mindset that I wasn't uncomfortable with anything.
I want to learn about religion, the reason is because, I don't know a lot about it. One of my best friends from high school "converted" to mormon, and that was very hard for me to deal with, because we had always caused trouble smoked swore and partied, and then one day he just decided to stop all of that and be a "good boy" Not that there's anything at all wrong with that. I felt like I lost a good friend, and on top of that he shoved it in my face and tried to "convert" me a bunch of times even after me telling him countless times that I did not want anything to do with his church, the two times I went was only for support, once was to see him get baptized, and the other was to see him get married. Between the years of him joining the church and getting married, we reconnected as friends he understood that I didn't want anything to do with it and we were reunited, he had to do a mission for 2 years in Utah, so we didn't get to see each other for quite a while. Not even a month after he got back he met a girl and got married, I was so exited to be invited to the wedding, only I didn't know that we had to wait in the lobby and not get to see it because we weren't members of the faith, his own brother didn't even get to see the wedding part we sat for 15 minutes, then they came and told us that it was over and they were married. He and I never had good luck with women, and he used to say women are attracted to "elders" elder is what he went on his mission to become, and I think the only reason he became a mormon is because he wanted to be married, so after knowing the girl for a month they got married, they now have two kids and are getting divorced, I tried to tell him that it wasn't a good idea to get married so quick and that she wasn't a nice girl, but he wouldn't listen, if I was in the same situation, I'm not sure if I would listen either. Since his divorce, he has almost turned back to his original being he swears non stop now, he doesn't smoke and still goes to church every Sunday. I would like to find out what it is that makes him believe in it so much, and why he thinks that religion is the "be all & end all of life" those were his words to me when he started attending. Overall I would like to find out what makes people in general believe in god and Jesus, I can't think of any reason to believe, because this world is a very horrible place to be at times, there is good but there is way to much bad for there to be a "higher power" that in theory could stop bad things from happening to good people and to people that can't defend themselves like children, when I'm in a conversation about religion, people often say god works in mysterious ways and everyone has a choice, I knew a little girl she was 8 years old and been molested more times than you can count, she didn't have a choice, and who ever I'm in the conversation with doesn't have an answer and the only thing they can say is that "god works in mysterious ways" This is why its hard for me to believe, and hard for me to understand why people believe that there's a god when all this bad stuff happens, not to mention I think its kind of childish to believe in something that has never ever been proven to exist, but I would like to find out more on why they believe.
I think this will be one of the most beneficial classes of the whole CYW course.
My goal for the year is of course to pass, but my other goal is to not have to work a shift at auto systems, I would love never having to step foot back into that place ever again, if I can manage OSAP well this year, I should be able to make it the whole year without working, my sub goal to that goal is to manage my money better, because in the past it just gets spent, I'm only buying things I "need" this year like books and gas, nothing else.
Thanks for reading folks, see you next week
John
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